Boyfriend/Girlfriends Recap/Explanation

Hey, do you guys remember that weird, very rushed post? The one about BFs and GFs? I shall attempt to explain my awkwardness.

(This next bit was written ages ago, I promise. xD)
 My religion discourages steady-dating (Boyfriends/Girlfriends) in teen years, and I think that it is a very sensible thing to do. No, scratch out discourages. No, perhaps.....consider it deeply discouraged. Okay, yeah, that is a LOT of discouragement. Anyhow, I just want to point out, that...well, it isn't just some crazy idea. It really makes a lot of sense. I don't really know where I was going with that. Ummm......Welll........yeah.....*ehm*....sorry, I am really tired. I fell asleep in math today, and I am just really out of it. It was one of those fight-sleeps. Where no matter how hard you try to keep your eyes open, you just can't.

(from here, I am awake. xD)

Anyway, so I think that you are just a big mess of unsorted emotions, and before you have taken the time to fix those ones up, you create a big mess of new ones. It just doesn't make sense. Wouldn't it be better to just take them in turn and not all at once?

So, now I guess I better justify myself. Everyone at school thinks I should have a boyfriend. Everybody has one, and everyone teases me. They have even asked me before if I wanted one. When I said no, they freaked out, like I was some crazy woman. Nope, I'm still the same as ever. They all know that I really like J, and when I said I didn't want to go out with him, they just about flipped. But the thing is, I love J so much, that I wouldn't dare to put him through me when I am still trying to understand myself. I son't want to lose him.

This is my rushed explanation. :)

~Evening Starlight