The Story of M

You know what? I just fell so depressed right now. Like, I just got back from a church dance, and I am overcome with feelings of total sadness, which you may think is funny, considering just a little while ago I was bubbly and happy. Well, the thing is, two of my bestfriends (one is a guy I kind of like xD) were so sad. And the thing about me is that I feed off of other people's emotions because I am a very sympathetic person, and you will never see me NOT feel for someone. Anyway, they were so happy and I was just about to cry the whole time. But mostly, the guy I like (let's call him 'M') was who really super depressed me after my other friend (let's call her 'N'). Let me explain. I was happy, but then N got so super sad, and I asked her why. Well, N moved from...another state in the U.S. and she was just about ready to cry. She felt so sad and alone at that particular moment and told me that she just wanted to die. She just felt so sad and alone. And I just felt bad too, because ever since I moved from my old state, I have felt so alone and friendless. Then, M kinda....Argh!!! This is so hard to explain. Well, anyway, maybe I better pause the story and tell you about me a little bit. Well, I am a crazy person, so I love everyone (and I do mean everyone) and I have a very big heart, so when I love someone like M, I want to make them happy. Well, I am not old enough to date, so I thought that it would be best for me to let him go and so I set him up with a girl there (in a way) and even though I was so happy that he was happy, it hurt. What is worse is that before I got him to talk to this girl, he told me why he was so sad. His dad wouldn't pick up his one friend (yep, a she) so he could bring her along to the dance. Yep, double heartbreak. It was horrible!!!! I mean, I dunno, am I overreacting? I mean, it is silly to have feelings for him like this now when I can't even really go anywhere of do anything with him, so what, is he just supposed to wait for me? But at the same time, I just wanna break the rules and go out with him. But yet, I know that he likes these other girls a whole lot more. :'( Actually, what makes it worse is that today he gave me like three hugs, actually asked me to dance, listened to me whine, and yet...well, I dunno, do you think he likes me? Oh, wait, that is a stupid question. :P Even if he does, I can't have him, because no one would be willing to wait for me, and he has all of those sweet girls. You guys, I need help. I like M so much, but I just don't think he likes me at all, even if we did eat nachos together and he got me punch...See what I mean? He is confusing me!!!! What do you think, guys? Answer me quick, before I go insane!!!! Thanks for listening to me whine!!! I heart you guys, even if M doesn't heart me.....

~Evening Star