Stoplight

GUYS!!!!!!!!!! My posts are invisible! I had a bunch of drafts that I had yet to edit and I can't get to ANY of them! Plus, all of the ones that have been posted don't show up in my post feed either. To top it all off, Blogger 'Help' isn't being very helpful at all. -_- I am super angry right now. First the dumb font wouldn't change and now this. I had a lot of stuff, just waiting to be posted, guys! -_- ARGH! I am BEYOND furious!!!!!! Actually, furious isn't the right word at all. I am just annoyed, and mostly disappointed, because I was going to share some stuff with you. But I don't want try and re-write it, in case I forgot some stuff. Oh well. I'll just move and share with you right now all of the things I haven't been able to share with you yet. Where was I now? OH YES! Okay, (hehe) So the thing about boyfriends and girlfriends? I guess I was not only sharing something with you that I strongly believe in, but also, in a way I was trying to console myself, because I have to wait FOREVER for J. Pooh. :b

So at school tomorrow, we are doing this 'Stoplight' thing where if you are available  you wear green, if you are talking/interesting in someone, you wear yellow, and if you are taken, you wear red. I considered wearing each color. (Yes, I admit every thought involved J. xD) Here are my reasons why I settled for white:

1. Wearing green is putting myself out there, telling people I actually want a boyfriend. Plus, wearing green kinda says that I haven't found anyone I really like yet. Not the impression I wanna give.
2. Wearing yellow is a very strange thing to do. That makes you practically taken. It reveals the fact that you have a crush, which isn't something I think should go weirdly public. Plus, since the fact that J likes me back, what if he doesn't know that I like him and that I am thinking of someone else? AHHHHHHHH NO MORE J!!!!!!!!!!! :OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Sorry, I had a moment. Anyway, that could get very confusing and complicated. Not only that, but some other reasons, too.(We will get to those later, in one of the MANY posts I owe you)
3. Red is just out. (yeah, I still stupidly considered it. Go figure) That is like openly saying I have a boyfriend, which implies that my standards are nothing to me (J STILL made me considered it....yikes).

I am just super curious if he plays the silly game. What will he wear? Will he be thinking of me? Or am I grasping at straws? What the heck, should it even matter? No, probably not. Does it? YES! I hope he just wears the old uniform navy or blue, because if he starts bringing out the colors, I'll go nuts. And having me going even MORE nuts is just....nuts.

Apologies people for all of the errors in this post (Yes, I can see them), but I have lots of posts to make up, and a complicated life to explain.....in fifteen minutes. I can do this. xD


~Evening Star