Fame...?

I'm noticing a trend: I only ever post when I get a new follower. So, the answer to this strange habit is: GIVE ME MORE FOLLOWERS AND I WILL GIVE YOU MORE POSTS!!! Deal? Good. ;) Anyway, here is a shout-out  to our newest member, Max, and that oh-so-coveted plate of marvelous brownies that I always so graciously provide! xD Here Max, have a go!!! xD

Haha, so more so onto the post. So, I am thinking about going public with my singing soon. Yes, this means drastically editing the content of this blog (You will understand if you have read through every post). I love you guys, and I hope you guys don't think me weird or anything when/if I ever become famous. You guys, I love you for being there from the beginning, through my hard times and...less hard times, and I promise not to forget you, ever! I love the fact that you guys (well...mostly girls xD) took the time to read at least a few posts. I understand that my posts are few and far between, but it just means a lot to me that you would bother to read even just two posts!

I am really getting worried about this 'fame' stuff. Will I change? Will others change? Will I ever be able to find a guy that I can trust if I am rich and famous? What happens? Can I handle it? Will I ever MAKE it that far? Will others like my voice? Is this really the career I want? Will it hold me back? Can I handle this? Am I mature enough? Can I hold my head up when criticized? Do I think I am good enough? Do I think I deserve this? Why do I have this talent? Why not someone else? Why me?

These questions are haunting me. Most of all the first and last ones. Will I change? I can answer things level-headedly now, but later? Will I be as sure of myself? And will I be TOO sure? I don't know.

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 I really don't know the answer. I am totally unsure. So, I have decided to ask God. I mean, becoming famous is a HUGE deal. People change. Things happen. It is a crazy world, and famous people are in the heat of it all. Am I strong enough to uphold myself through it all? Please, post your comments below and answer, but for right now, I am going to be spending a LOT of my time on my knees.  I know, I'm religious. I know, most famous people couldn't care less about God. But, hey, maybe I could be a good role model to somebody, or maybe I am meant to impact a few people, or maybe this is just a personal growth thing for just me...I'm not sure yet, but I am sure that not matter what, I am still going to sing my heart out!

So, this post got long, personal, serious, and...wow. Did that make up for a lot of missed days? Because I really think it should! ;)


xD Haha, as my French teacher makes me say, Adieu! 


~Evening Star